Serenity… refocus – seek joy – thrive

cat's eye nebula

Every spare moment, these days, I seem to have my nose in a book. No hardship, that, I love to read, but these days it too is almost like work.

My itty bitty library across the street is coming in so handy. They have a very limited selection there, but with being able to order in what I need and then just pop over there and pick it up when it comes in makes it convenient. Maybe too convenient – I have to make sure to read and absorb what I have already and not be tempted by each new and interesting thing I find, otherwise I’ll never get started on this book. I’ll just keep researching it for years and not write a word – that would be shameful.

I don’t really fear that happening, though – the stories are just bubbling away in my head and I sometimes write out scenes or just thought fragments, just to get them down so I won’t forget them and to keep the book fresh in my mind. That’ll have to do, for now, because I just have too much to learn about my subject in order to actually start writing.

My time is limited, though, as is my ability to focus my mind on different things – maybe it’s age or something, but I don’t think so. I’ve been pretty much the same for ages – get excited about one thing and laser in on that to the exclusion of most all else, until it gets old hat and I become bored and go on to the next thing. I have so many plans for Human Beams and remaking that, which I was really excited about, but now it seems as if they’ve scuttled off and planted themselves on a shelf somewhere because they knew they were going to be ignored. For now.

I *think* I’ll get to a point where I can concentrate on both – but each will take a huge time commitment and dedication in order to do it right, and for now I think I need to put off one to do the other. This – researching the book, concentrating on writing in order to become more comfortable with it and to improve my skills, moving in new directions – all of that,  just feels right, right now. So, I’ll go with it.

I feel better, now that I’ve decided that.

After all, who am I to argue with the universe (cough)?

[photo via NASA.gov]

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