creating my own life
“I decided, if I’m going to be poor and black and all, the least thing I’m going to do is to try and find out who I am. I created everything about me. ”
Unlike the quotes I rotated monthly, Ornette Coleman’s words strolled onto my site over a year ago dressed in deceptive simplicity, paused, and invited me to take a second look before I changed them for something else. And a third look. And a fourth, until finally the words became such a familiar part of the warp and weft of the site that I just let this quote stay.
And there it sat, quiet, unobtrusive, yet tantalizing – like a puzzle box displaying itself just within my reach. I know it waits for me to take it in my hands and prod and press for the right lever so that it can fling itself open and reveal all its secrets. Just so these words, although the critical lever – “I created everything about me” – was not hidden. What to do about it was. Only because I was not yet ready to move beyond the surface beauty of the concept of self-creation and into the forging fires beneath. I am now.
I am going to create my own life. Out loud. So to speak. I’m going to write about my journey, but perhaps not in the first person as I am far better at giving advice to others than taking my own. But the words will still be about me and my walk, with the hope that parts of it will benefit others. Especially, but not limited to, those who are also poor, Black and – as in my case – “past the first blush of youth.” 
To do this I will need to put myself “out there”, which will be extremely difficult for me, but I see no way around it for the purpose of reaching my particular goals.
In other words, I am going to – yes, even more – work here, and everywhere, to build of myself something new, and confident, and lovely. It’s time.
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